For the last few days, Alden has been "off"- whining, throwing fits for no reason, wanting to be held ALL the time, and then the biggest, he stopped eating. Last night, I slept for maybe 3 hours, and that wasn't all in 1 stretch but in sprinkled amounts of 15-30 min. Poor Alden was screaming in his sleep (how he could be in so much pain but not open his eyes still boggles my mind). He would be holding my hand and squeeze tightly when he needed to swallow- and you do this a LOT.... I had a hunch it was Strep or something bad in his throat. Once morning rolled around and Alden woke-up, I was exhausted and yes, a little grumpy. Thankfully I was able to get him in to see the Dr, and he was diagnosed with Strep Throat. Still painfully tired, but able to focus thanks to coffee and Coke, I was able to make it home, give Alden his first round of meds, and plop him in bed for his nap. I was about to take a little snooze myself, when the phone rang.
Friend's of ours had lost their baby boy- he was due this week. The pain that they must be going through, I cannot fathom. I do know that they know The Ultimate Healer, and are able to rest in Him as they work their way through this raw time in their lives.
This phone call, while terrible, was just what I needed to hear. It helped me stop my gripping, and instead, be thankful. Thankful that I have a baby who CAN get Strep, who wants his Mommy when he doesn't feel good, who feels better when I hold his hand, a little girl who always wants Mommy to read or color with her. I am thankful for little clothes to wash and fold, and wash and fold, and wash and fold. I am thankful for the little laughter and squealing cries that bounce off my walls. I am thrilled to have split milk to clean up, crushed goldfish to vacuum, and a car that is so full of dropped snacks, I could possibly feed a small village.
I feel terribly for my friends- but I am thankful for how they helped me put my night/day, into perspective. God has blessed me with 2 beautiful, spunky, strong-willed, blessings- and I need to remember to be thankful for them in the good and in the bad.